Pride

Written: August 18th, 2011

When I was younger, my family always used me to rant at because I would just sit there and listen, offering very little in the way of advice or opinion. Due to the subject of the rants, my attitude served them just fine, and I was forced to endure endless hours of them talking about one another, as if I didn't see them all on a regular basis. Regardless of how I felt, I learned a lot about how they thought and processed - knowledge that I later used for easy manipulation of them when I was older. I'm not completely proud of how well I can manipulate the people around me, but it is a fact, nonetheless.

Sad sad robot. 

Tonight, tonight

Written August 15th, 2011

Today, I cried for the first time for what I have lost. It has been nearly three weeks since our mutual break-up, but it is tonight that my heart truly pains and my constitution wavers between running back with my tail between my legs or sticking to my decisions with a sorrowful pride. I fear I shal stay the latter, and hurt for it.
But so is life.

I cry for the best friend that will never be the same. For never having the same candid and frank discussions. For losing the bank of secrets, shared glances, inside jokes and honesty. For being alone to share my opinions and thoughts.

I cry for the lover that is no more. The shared nights we lay together, naked into the night. The small touches and courtesies we knew by habit. The way I could sense him, and he me. The sweet kisses and the passionate ones that would take my breath away every time. The way we knew each other's body so well; the way we were really one in two.

Something creative I did this week...

So I legitimately have been doing wicked creative things, I just keep forgetting to post them // I haven't had a lot of time to post them.

BUT here's a trailer I recently cut together for a documentary I made this semester. I had a lot of freedom with this trailer than the documentary which placed me more towards the artsy side of things. Hope you like it!

What I've been doing

These are from before the break:

Chocolate marbled pound cake with butterscotch topping (from scratch)

Celebratory spring break dinner!  Baked creamy parmesan chicken with fancy mushroom mac&cheese with sourdough bread (from scratch)

And I've been designing a dress this week (will be posted soon) and writing some lyrics. 

:D